y do i steadily let u back in my heart?

Mon, 09 May 2005 19:12:51 GMT

okkk!!1 u like my icon huh?i kno u do and ur jealous haha im gay yes i kno!!1 im listenin to country *YEEHAW*!!!1 fuckin right!ok to day was gay megan and her shit goawd shes so much fuckin dramaA!!grr im bored!!i finally fig. out that i dnt have many friends :-(....glad i came to that conclusion... i was jus thinkin bout it and finnaly realized that....so nickole and sam still rnt talkin!hell yea thats awsome im glad cuz nickole is a bitch and sam dsnt need to be around her!!1this song rox my sox! *party for two*-shania twain-haha okkk...well im really emo right now and feel like dying grrr....im gay gosh im makein a new l/j its goin to be ixknoxuxwntxme just like that okkk!bye

Thu, 05 May 2005 00:48:06 GMT

do u kno y im so depressed and suicidal now?

yea this is the truck i wrecked on thanksgiving

On November 25th which as you know was Thanksgiving... after leaving my grandmas for Thanksgiving .. my mom turned onto a dirt road ... and was allowing my 17 yr old cousin drive and I also wanted to drive as we went around a corner I lost control of the vehicle and it rolled about 4 -5 times we got ejected on the 2nd roll .. I suffered a laserated live and rsptured a disk in my neck and back.. my cuzn suffered a fracture in cervical collar bone and fractured 3 vertabraes in her back shes in a back brace and neck brace for 3mths.. mom just got a lil banged up had whiplash and damaged the tissue in right of her leg we all were fortunate to be alive and I can truly say that we're very thankful to be alive ... cherish the ones you love as if there were no tomorrow because never did I think this would happen to me... but that just goes to show this can happen to anyone at any time... if you see the truck it was badly damaged had it been any smaller we probably wouldnt of made it... so be greatful you have your loved ones with you ... thanks for viewing this site

i can still smell that dirt and mud and blood all mixed up together.....i rember going blind thinking i was goin to die.i remeber goin into shock....and i remember lookin at my mom and thinkin great i jus fucked up everyones life....

Tue, 03 May 2005 20:21:04 GMT

man today sucked balls...ok?well we have block schedule...ive realized nd came to my senses i still &hearts; staci yall dnt kno her...i love her so much..gawd she effin drives me crazy...ok well i stil like dustin .n. ...i think??ok well i love u all..

chris*bert* ~ love ya to man..haha u funny monkey!~

rachel~ur cool but not as kool as me haha~

marissa~ur gay but i still love ya i swear..~

dustin .N.~ i still like u haha~

Mon, 02 May 2005 20:24:46 GMT

haaaah i &hearts; this pic its so hawt...haha ok well i didnt go to skool cuz im sick and have a bad earache plus i didnt have a ride...so wats up w/ everyone?i watched JERRY SPRINGER O YEA cuz im so kool!ill be on aim hopefully in a lil its messing up so i had to reinstall it ok well me and phil r still talkin he still &hearts; me haha thats wat he said and he misses me alot..man i really like that kid......hmmm but he lives in n.y wat shuld i do?weve been goin out since letz c ummm oct. 13 2004...but really i love him soo much......is that weird?o yea i repeirced my lip and im def. goin to keep my ring in then imma get phil to by me a lip ring!haha he said i get watever i want cuz im his lil princess ooo no im pose to be his queen haha!ugg my ear hurts...ooo realworld is on tonight and the lil 3some is ganna get yelled at by a gay guy!yea u rock dan haha....ok well i &hearts; all of my wittle friands haha

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 01:07:58 GMT

hey hey hey.This is ashley marcum she was and still is my best friend on 3-15-04 she was killed.She was in a accident with her 2 other sisters.Both of them are still alive but our dearly beloved ashley died on impact.She was born 9-27-90.Till this day I always think of you Ashley your the best thing that ever happend to me.You changed everybody you met.Your the sweetest person I have ever met...you should still be here but unfourtunaly you not.I LOVE YOU ASHLEY NICOLE MARCUM REMEBER THAT ALWAYS!!!!

IN LOVING MEMORY OF ASHLEY NICOLE MARCUM

9-27-90 TO 3-15-04

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 00:29:54 GMT

omfg how hott is that?its hott!haha thats my new masterbation pic. lala haha....well im bored..and stoopid ass george busch is on every channel i swear wen im older imma assanate him haha...i dont care if im put n jail he deserves to be shot in the balls then his d**k shoved down his throat.... haha i hate that bitch

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 01:40:20 GMT

[1] Last Cigarette: 3 wks ago
[2] Last Library Book:uhh dunno?
[3] Last book bought: stephen king!
[4] Last Movie Seen in Theatres: amityville horror
[5] Last Movie Rented: exorcist:te beginning
[6] Last Phone Call: DANNY
[7] Last TV Show Watched: dukes of hazzards
[8] Last Time Showered: today?
[9] Last Shoes Worn: converse
[10] Last CD Played:good charlotte
[11] Last Item Bought:cookie icecream
[12] Last Download: aim
[13] Last Disappointment:that megan is a nosey bitch
[14] Last Soda Drank: coke
[15] Last Thing Written: that<--
[16] First screen name:ruby_1991
[17] First piercing/tattoo: my ears
[18] First concert:new found glory

Yes/No
[19] You keep a diary: fuck yea
[20] You like to cook: hell fuck no

[21] You have a secret you haven't shared with anyone: uhhh yea
[22] Want to get married: uhh sure
[23] Get along with your parents: nope
[24] Current hair color: black

FAVORITES
[25] Numbers:
[26] Colors: lime green
[27] Days: wensday!hump day!haah
[28] Months: july december august
[29] Song(s):obsession but the spanish version is better
[30] Seasons: winter

PREFERENCES
[31] Cuddle or makeout: makeout
[32] Chocolate milk or hot chocolate: hot chocolate
[33] Milk, dark or white chocolate: milk is ALOT better than white
[34] Vanilla or chocolate: vanilla

IN THE LAST 2 DAYS, HAVE YOU...
[35] Cried? yeaps
[36] Helped someone? nopes
[37] Bought something? food
[38] Gotten sick? nope
[39] Gone to the movies? nope
[40] Written a real letter? yeaps to rachel
[41] Talked to an ex? uhhuh nope
[42] Had a serious talk? yes to dustin
[43] Hugged someone? of course
[44] Hurt someone?yes marissa

x = yes
= no

[ ] im straight.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I've run away from home.
[x] I don't like Bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
[ ] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I love Disney Movies.
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[x] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I paid for a ring tone
[x] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I bake well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[ ] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I have scars.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I see a therapist.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship
[x] I've been lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star
[ ] I've been to another continent
[ ] Had a serious Surgery
[x] Gone one out in public in my pajamas
[ ] Made out w/ a stranger
[ ] Hugged a stranger
[x] Been in a fist fight
[x] Been arrested.
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[x] Swore at your parents
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[ ] Been in love
[ ] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[ ] Broken a bone
[x] Skipped school
[ ] Flashed someone
[x] Saw a therapist
[x] Done the splits
[x] Gotten stitches
[ ] I'm slightly lactose in tolerant
[x] Bitten someone (just messing around)
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls
[ ] Believe in God
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[x] Kissed a member of the same sex but they kissed me.
[x] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[ ] Ridden in a taxi
[x] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[x] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[ ] Stole something from your job
[ ] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[x] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated mardigras in New Orleans
[ ] Been to Europe
[ ] Slept with a co-worker
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[x] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[ ] Been to Canada
[ ] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[x] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi
[ ] Been snowboarding
[ ] Been Skiing
[x] Met someone in person from the internet
[ ] Been to a moto cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[ ] Gone to college
[ ] Graduated college
[x] Done hard drugs
[x] Taken painkillers
[x]Had someone cheat on you

*. . . W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R . . .*
1) pierce your nose or tongue? tongue
2) be serious or be funny? funny
3) drink whole or skim milk? skim

* . . . A R E Y O U . . .*
4) simple or complicated? complicated

* . . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . . *
5) flowers or angels? angels
6) grey or gray? grey
7) color or black-and-white photos? black and white is alot better than color
8) action or love movies? action
9) sunrise or sunset? sunset
10) M&Ms or Skittles? skittles
11) rap or rock? rock
12) staying up late or waking up early? staying up late
13) TV or radio? radio
14) water or soda? water
15) eating apples or oranges?oranges

* . . . A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y . . . *
16) Do you have a crush? YA
17) Who is it? DANNY

* . . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . . *
18) being hot or cold? Cold
19) tall members of the opposite (or same) sex, or short?short
20) sun or moon? moon (at leaste this bastard doesn't burn the hell outta u)
21) emeralds or rubies? rubies*my birthstone*
22) left or right? left
23) having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend? 1 best friend
24) sun or rain? rain, i love gloomy dark days they make me feel better than sunny days
25) vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? vanilla
26) boys or girls? girls
27) green beans or carrots? carrots
28) low fat or fat free? low fat tastes better

* . . . M I S C E L L A N E O U S . . . *
29) What is your biggest fear in the world? fucking hairy ass spiders
30) Kids or no kids? kids at the CORRECT time in a relationship but for no no little bastards running around for me...
31) Cat or dog?cat
32) Half empty or half full? half empty
33) Mustard or ketchup? Ketchup
34) Hard cover books or soft cover books? soft cover
35) Newspaper or magazine? magazine
36) Sandals or sneakers? sneakers
37) Wonder or amazement? wonder
38) Red car or white car? red every1 has a wite car
39) Happy and poor or sad and rich? happy and poor
40) Singing or dancing? haah
41) Hugging or kissing? kissing
42) Corduroy or plain? plain
43) Happy or sad? sad
44) Purple or green? green

* . . . A B O U T Y O U . . . *
45) Pets? nothin
46) Height? 5"3
47) Eye color? green
48) Hair color? black
49) Piercing(s)? ears and my lip

* . . . W H A T D O Y O U W A N T . . . *
50) Where do you want to live? anywhere but here maybe back in jersey or in UK or in penn state or UTAH!!! lol
51) How many kids do you want? 2
52) What kind of job do you want? artist or writer
53) Do you want to get married? yes

* . . . W H I C H I S B E T T E R . . . *
54) 2 doors or 4 (on a car): 4
55) Coffee or ice cream? ice cream
56) Shampoo or conditioner? conditioner
57) Bridges or tunnels? Tunnels cuz they're dark and scary!
58) One pillow or two? two please!

* . . . W O R D A S S O C I A T I O N . . . * (first thing that comes to mind)
59) Rock? chrissie
60) Green? stepahnie
61) Crying? slittin
62) Peanut? cheese
63) Roses? deppression
64) Summer? desert
65) Winter? snow

* . . . F A V O R I T E S . . . *
66) Salad dressing? french
67) Color of socks? multicolored
68) Food? salads
69) Alcoholic drink? vodka straight up
70) Non-alcoholic drink? sherly temple

* . . . R A N D O M Q U E S T I O N S . . . *
71) When was your last hospital check?nov25 2004
72) Where do you see yourself in 10 years? ? dead
73) Have you ever been convicted of a crime? no
74) What do you do most often when you are bored?
name the person that you are friends with that lives the farthest away from you?dorothy
76) Are you open minded? hell no
77) Can you be in love with two people at the same time? fuck no
78) Love of your life now? gerard

i overdosed today... :(

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 18:48:48 GMT

yes this is verymuch true...this mornin on the bus i thought i was just sick but nope i went to 1st and during the morn. anno. i tried to throw up but didnt work out....2nd tried again nope....so then i got really dizzy then went to the nurse none picks up....go b4 4th nope still none....2 b4 10:00 i was in the cafe. practicing for drama and my face went numb just b4 i got to the door i threw up and just cried....went to the nurse and amanda said i needed to go the docotors cuz i overdosed...i took 12 asprin...6 tension headaches pills....omg ill never do it again....i couldnt breathe or catch my breathe can eat and only drink water...OMFG...

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 19:48:32 GMT

hey hey hey.....lets see bri is sad cuz of melissa wich is w/e....princess loves donny....frankie jr is o so hawt hahahaha lomfl...!!!haha...well im not mad at rachel im mad at allen for bein a dick like he is....i duunno...<~3(broken heart) its nothin different u think it kills me buti just go on its a usual day for my heart maybe one day ill learn???i dunno

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 21:00:43 GMT

ok well today was shyt...me an rachel went to the fair saw none interestin sept for allen wich he can kiss my ass grrr...he pissed me off fagget....nick went to the hospital gashed his head open on a ride...not sure wich one....then went home got sleep...woke up ate food and called my mom i cleaned my bafroom then i went to go to my room...folded clothes and my dad seen my wrist and he yelled at me and told me to effin clean my room then i said i was goin to runaway and he said for me too get in the bed then he hit me a few times and then just alot of fuck ass shyt ok im out...gay!<3333333333frankie

ok havent riten in forever

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 21:30:55 GMT

ok well shit is goin ok i like a girl named staci...and phil emaild me back and were talkin...im hopefully movin to p-town soon....me and staci r goin to run the fuck away and drop outta skool...be in a apart. and work our ass off lol...um ok well i g2g bye...love frankie....love ya rachel and frankie jr..!lol but i like staci the mostest

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 02:21:16 GMT

ok im over @ rachels house chillin ummm.......geuss wat im goin out w/ samantha htis girl ive known for liek fricken ever........yay im happy..

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 21:22:20 GMT

YOU ARE THE REAL THING!!! Coca-Cola. I like you the
best. You are very yummy. Many, many people
would love to drink you. You are very addictive
and when people meet you, they don't want to
leave. Most likely, you are very charismatic.

What type of coke are you?
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yeap yeap im good hey i have pics of the wreck...its a website if u want it let me no il give it to u....but yeap im so happy w/ amanda g. my life is soooo much better!!!!god i love her so much !!!!!!!!Ok well hmmm.....

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 22:10:41 GMT

ok well me and amanda g. r goin back out shes one of those ppl that like to break up then get bak together watever its koolio im just happy were together again!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 20:42:59 GMT

hi ppl geuss wat tomorrow is....2morrow marks the 2nd month of my accident...waaaa....omg i wanna cry....i got home today and started to think about 11/25 and i threw up yuck.....well imma go....
love to all
i love you chrissie,amanda,rachel,marissa,and DUSTIN BURTON...

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 20:27:23 GMT

hey im back well this weekend was awsome i had a lot of fun with my aunt but then like i had to come home....urgggggg my dad pisses me off i hate him stupid fuck... imma runaway...have newere for to me stay?....im 4 real..theres a new kid in skool hes from mass. and his name is leo...OMG HES SOOOOO FUKIN HOOTTTTTTT.LOL.ok wel im really bored and rachek is over here so imma go
love you
all chrissie,amanda v.,stephanie,rachel,marissa and o yea leo!!!!

i have a g/f!!!!

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 20:20:12 GMT

yea im sooooo happy...its weird tho cuz were like best friends but were goin out now and i like her and she likes me so like yea!!!omg im so happy things r really gettin good....gawd im so glad i didnt kill myself tuesday...OOPS....URMM I MEAN....ahh watever....

im out
i love you 69!!

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 21:43:51 GMT

ok this is wht u do if you wna tany other 1's

1.find a place to egt icons like icon goddes ...
2.find the icon you want and then right click it, click were it says save as picture...
3.then u go to you'r user page and go to manage, and find user pictures click it and wight..
4.click browes and find the picture you want....
click save at he botton and u can have up to three icons

you'r welocn and it's all u'rs have fun and i didn't know what to get you so i got you these.

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 04:09:09 GMT

im sitin doin nothin...watchin csi.....wanderin y?y does this peice of shit life of mine steadily go around.....to me life is nothin im so tired of my dads shit..i dnt care if my mom is an acholic or not i plan on movin in with her in the future....nobody is goin to stop me....not even the ppl who love me....this life is to easy....i got it to good and to easy i dnt deserve ne of this....my life is to hard then i get this laid back life uhhh no i dnt like it and i never will i dnt care wat neone has to say about my life its mine and imma ruin it if i want...y do ppl steadily try to help wen they no its not goin to really help???

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 04:03:12 GMT

I hate the world ppl life.. I could care less about anyone else.. Ive learned that the less u give a fuck the less u hurt.. the human race is nothing to me and everyone deserves to die .. all they do is fucking hurt ppl put ppl down when they should look at theirselves.. Gods gonna end this world.. he needs to hurry cuz its only getting worse... Id like to think Im not a fucking human .. or at least not fucking act like one.. die ppl die fuck u ppl fuck u.... fuck off.. Im in my own world now and cant nobody fuck with me so nanana

this is also somethin my mom rote do u see why i am the way i am....ppl make me feel worthless...my mom is an acholic and suffers from bipolar...so tell me has ur mom ever sayed that to u?

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 03:58:21 GMT

dont write stoopid shit in my diary cuz I dont care what ppl have to say about me.. Im moving forward all I give a shit about are my 2 boys and Im gonna do whats right by them..... Im moving forward so should u .. .have a great life.. one of my quotes "if u dont like me stay the fuck away from me" thanx bye to all .. muah

this is wat my mom rote me in my greatestjournal so if u think o my mom is stupid...u better be thinkful ur mom dnt say that shit to u

my mom is a acholic and i hate her

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 02:56:35 GMT

im only horny cuz of scott lol.....ooo he turns me on.....ok amanda shut up.....*u phsyco*noone cares....lol.....i am very weird

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 21:07:15 GMT

hey.....im weirder then ever....i like squirrels.....i have 4 journals to write in....i have 3 razors.....i have over 70 scars on my arm.....over 100 alltogether......my mom rote a suicidal note....i hate my mom and she hates me.....only one friand that doesnt think bad about me......i wear my necklaces as bracelts.....im goin out with a kid named scott mercer.....i hate florida......i like dora the explorer and lazy town.....i hate the show hilary duff...i ahte lizzie mcguire.....i gata new cell phone......i cant ride in a truck.....i hate 2 dr cars......wen i smoke cigs i become awake......my cuzns piss me the fuck off....i hate lil dogs....im goin to end up stabbing one of my cuznss w/ a plastic fork...lol....

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 04:48:56 GMT

i have found someone not sure if its lust or love i dunno....i love u samantha my princess .....but i love u too staci but ur with erica nd i dunt want u hurtin her....so wenn u get ur shit strait then well talk....well i dunno im out laters

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 02:55:29 GMT

i have finally came up with my desc. i am ready to tell ppl and i dnt care wat they think im gay(lez)yea and i dont care wat ppl that have to hate against me say...im me my own person and proud...